my thoughts...

here i am wide awake...tried going to bed...off the lights, adjusted my fan, snuggle into my blankie...but my eyes was fully awake due to the after effect of two doses of coffee i had this afternoon at work that kept me going. part of me knew that its my responsibility to sleep early to function well at work to treat my patients(as a physio) but on the other hand I knew that it wouldnt help much to just toss and turn around in my bed....then, it struck me that....hey! maybe i'll just "pen" my first entry...
when i was first introduced to this online journal thingie, it didnt quite appeal to me...i'm someone who is used to writing my journals down on a book(it's been 4 years since...). it wasn't easy to start of with but today i can sincerely say that its worth the time and effort!
once in a while i would take it up and read em & that's when i realised how clear god's faithfullness in my life has been...he will always bring us thru the valley we're in and thru it he'll bless us! the diff between an online one and a written one is....there's just some secrets(btw ourselves or god) =) we may all have that is not for everyone to see heh-those are e precious ones =)..i know u know wat i mean, but then there's some things which i could post up here & could not do it in my journal...which is then why i should give it a try...
but it would take awhile before my next entry...my attachment is just taking so much of my time that i just wish it would be over soon...there's just so much i would want to do & that's just so much am required to do as a student...argggh...and here and then i hear god telling me again, enjoy every moment and dun rush...hmmm....
& there's just so much i wish to tell u about this attachment & how god's been there....but maybe another time when time is not a limit...ehhe

my bro just msg me that he bought a digi cam for me!god u answered again...eheh.goin to get em when i'm back soon maybe end of this month...then could post some pics for u guys.ooppss, just realise it's my mums birthday today. Happy birthday! =)

i'll end here with some writings & a poem my fren wrote in her blog which touch & teared me deeply...she lost her dad(a wonderful man of god) just awhile ago in a helicopter crash in sarawak when he tried to bring "light" to e rural areas...

Pa, you wanted to light up people's lives with physical light.

Let me just say that first and foremost, you lit up your children's lives with more than physical light.

You taught us, nurtured us, and loved us.

And someday, when the rough highlands of Borneo bask in electrical light and an uninterrupted power supply, I will smile and say that your work lives on in the world you left.

I love you.
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Little girl, you don't know when

Memories are made.

But can I tell you something?

Never let them fade.

Look, Daddy's arm's around you now

You don't think much of it

But it's stored in your memory

Bit by bit by bit.

When he's not here you'll remember

How he tucked you in at night

How he kissed you on the cheek

Even after you've had a fight.

Little girl, little girl, oh treasure

Treasure your moments with him

For these moments will light your path

Even when the path seems so dim.

- jtt

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see ya the next time!

cheers,
jacq