It's by Him & Him alone that I made it to Ben Gen!

Before telling you guys about the suspense of the story.Hehe let me bring you down memory lane on how Daddy God has liften me up from a point where situation around me all seems hopeless to a ground of victory. It's a walk/an experience I've never regreted or would wanna exchange for anything else. The final walk was a touch of His great Love for me!
I promise you that this IS going to be LONG.Heh.So if you're rushing time, hungry?,sleepy...it will be a task reading this =) But if you do finish it...it's a miracle.Haha.jk
This pass 2 weeks has been one of the toughest moments in my life I would say.But it was a period that I drew closest to Him & cling on to His promises so ever tightly-taking nothing less than what He has promised. It was e day that I receive the news from my lecturer that I had to re-do my attachment for 5 weeks.No one likes repeat.No one likes failure.I felt so horrible.I cried so much that tears just keep flowing.So much so that I think I might have even been dehydrated if I continued on =) But failures brings me to the end of myself & all of God.
My lecturer even told me that if I dun pass this there was a chance that I might have to pay back my bond to the hospital.(which I know is not true because I know I've favor with e Head & e rest=))
It's not only that, the Ben Gen camp meant much more to me then all this.Doing another 5 weeks means that I will not be able to make it for e camp.But if I saw how God miraculously paid my way there, will He not make a way for me?
This pass 2 weeks was a time I experience one of my greatest growth in the Lord.
I'm also thankful that He send Joshua(not the real name =)) to confirm His Word each time.
1) When I heard about the repeat of my attachment,I spoke to three person(my bro, Joshua & my landlord) & the first thing they ALL mention was Romans 8:28.
2)One day while I was doing my QT, He gave me this verse so clearly that I knew so strongly in my heart that it really was from Him. It’s 2 Cor 2:14.The same day after work while i was in the bus, i took out my devotional book & the first page it so "happen" to flip to was also from 2 Cor 2:14! being the verse of the day out of the 365 days with the heading "Do not Worry".I was too shocked, that I immediately close the book to allow myself time to resume back to my normal state.Hee.
The same week, Joshua explain something using 2 verses and it was also from 2 Cor 2:14 too!
3)Last 2 sundays, pastor spoke on faith. The one thing that touch me most was when he said "Enjoy the process of faith" and later I realised the day before Joshua also wrote Enjoy this walk-a walk to remember. Last Sat, Deacon mention it too regarding the making of clays & said….Enjoy the process. It was like God telling me to keep cool in all this and enjoy this walk!
4)A few days back, I heard His voice so audibly again.This verse "I am sure that the one who began a good work in me, he will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ" It kept repeating over and over again. That I decided to search up e verse. It’s not a verse that I’ve memorise & even if you ask me now, I may not quote it as clearly as i could that day.Surely it was his spirit in me.
The very next day, I happen to turn to my old notes after so long.And my eyes fell on the page where I wrote down what Jacob(FGA youth speaker) prayed for me three months back. And one of the 2 verses he gave me was from Phil 1:6!!
I dun even recall writing that verse down.Hee.
5)And I also shared to Joshua about the other things Jacob phrophesied.One of which he said he saw two wings. One was e spirit & the other the Word. He said that I was sensitive to the Spirit but was not grounded in the Word. Which was true then, cause all my years growing up as a Christian I knew hardly ten verses ;) But this pass 2 weeks, with the revelation he revealed to me, remembering became so much more easier for me.I remember more than all my 20years plus as a Chrsitian!
Joshua wrote back to me something which I thought was really beautiful :
Soar on His eagles' wings! He always carries us... and I'm reminded of our New Creation logo, the silver and gold wings... of redemption and divinity from Ps 68:11-13:
11 The Lord gives the command;
The women who proclaim the good tidings are a great (in number and quality) host:
12 "Kings of armies flee, they flee,
And she who remains at home will divide the spoil!"
13 When you lie down among the sheepfolds,
You are like the wings of a dove covered with silver,
And its pinions with glistening gold.
When we are in His rest, guarded by Jesus (He is the door of the sheepfold), we are the wings of the Holy Spirit-Dove, of silver and gold. In His rest, we enjoy the victory He accomplished for us when He went before us (Ps 68:7), to overcome the world and the hosts of darkness. We may seem to be doing nothing but resting at home, resting in Him, yet great is the plunder for us, because Jesus has done it all! =)
That was fresh from our Abba for you! Jesus loves you very much, beloved.
And before I open his mail, God spoke to me saying "Even if you try by your own effort to accomplish what you have hope for, it will not be as much as what I can do if you just learn to rest"(I was quite worried at that time for not studying at home instead of just resting) And it was a confirmation when he wrote...resting at home.
And guess wat, on the same day during combine last sat, the last song was:
"..And as I wait,
I'll rise up like the eagle,
& I will soar with you,
your spirit leads me on,
by the power of your love"
God is my witness to all this. And He loves me so much to show me His love thru His Word, His Spirit in me & His people.
And this give me a sure Hope & Faith deep in my heart that no matter what He’ll make a way for me to the camp. It will take a miracle...Dunno how he was going to do it, but He made it for me in the end!
On Monday morning, my physio Head called me to her office.This is what she told me:
"We wont be able to take in students from 6th to 10th of June because the hospital is doing an audit.It was exactly the date of e camp!Can you believe it.Haha.Not only that, she went on to say...
If possible, we'll pass you in 2/3 weeks!
No replacement or bringing forward.
It was just that! Nothing of all e conversation that I had in mind.It's just so amazing, cause I told her nothing about the camp.Something I cant say to a Head.Hee.
God not only answered my prayer for the camp. I remember telling Him that I'll pray for 2 weeks although it may seem impossible.At least thats what my supervisor told me.She would say at least 3 weeks because she was told by my lecturer that there isn't such a thing as cutting short an attachment.
I always pray that God will speak to my head like how Pastor Prince prayed to God to speak to his commander(wat do u call em,heh) in NS in a dream.Hehe.
God's just so amazing.Now the hospital cant even accept students during that period!Haha.
Looking back over my life, I can honestly say that God has pretty much given me everything I've asked Him for, from the easy to the seemingly impossible.I am still anticipating to receiving His blessings In His perfect timing =)
I have a confession to make.I am spoiled.Teribly, teribly spoiled with so much given to me.
I have been a recipient of such freebies as mangoes(Heh.from e fruit stall aunty, my fav), computer, 2 watches,5 bibles, 2 table lamp, 2 hand phones,$50 rent for a whole new 5-room flat, & of course this camp fees and well, you name it!
Do you see a God who blesses more than one.He gives us in abundance.
And it's just the tangible, in-your-hands spectrum. I could go on and on about God's loving guidance, His special way in letting me know I have His undivided attention(at least it feels that way=)), or the favour He gives me with others.
I choose to name ALL this gift from God. Some of my blessings have been material, and others have been incredible opprtunities some would view as serendipitous moments, but I see my Father's hand in the midst of all this!
Why am I so confident?It certainly isn't because I'm more spiritual than the next person. I know many people who pray more, read their Bible more, and simply know more about God than I do.
As I have sought to understand why some folks are blessed more abundantly than others, God's Word has confirm to me that that His ultimate desire is for all of us to be bless. One that overflows with His rich providence & goodness as we listen to the Spirit to become more & more like Christ!
God's Word gives us an entry to the deep riches of His blessings!
Spend your time with Him.After you've shared your heart with Him, continually reading His Word, He will impress a portion of Scripture in your mind for you and that will be a word of instruction or comfort to you.Or you will have a sense of deep knowing(like how I knew I will make it to camp), a conclusion, and a peace on the subject you have laid on Him.Or sometimes He sends someone who has the answer you seek or to confirm His Word.
If you have this sense of knowing, walking thru your trials becomes a rest!
Resting in the knowing that God will fulfill what He has promise.He is not an author of confusion but of peace.
Rest today in His grace.It has all been paid for on the cross.
Know it.Believe it.Rest in it.
Love wat pastor said"Be cool when the devil the adversary comes to attack you.Focus on Jesus, NOT your enemies"
May you live a life that glorifies his name in all you do!
"But seek first His kingdom & His righteousness, & all this things will be ADDED to you!"
Grace be with you, beloved!=)

Oh I feel His Love

*knock**knock*
Dawson:"My daddy wants to talk to you"
"Me?Hold on for a second"(What could it be?)
I walk into the room & saw all of them gathered in a circle around the bed.
"Come let us pray for you"
We held our hands & each said a prayer for me.
My heart was both touched & moved when Dawson(6yrs old) & Lydia(9yrs) said a prayer for me.Followed on by the maid, Angeline(wife) & Desmond.It was one of my sweetest moments.Have a hear on how little children pray.You'll be amazed at their simple child like faith.
Daddy God truly loves me so much to place me in this family.He really gives me nothing but the BEST.Just when I thought that I have lost the "best" when I had to shift from my previous house, I was indeed wrong.And now I can clearly see His plans being fulfilled.
It's my dream to see a family coming together to pray.I remember my mum calling for such "meeting" when I was young.My brother & I would go and hide ourselves.Hee.We knew it was good, but just that we were both very shy especially when it comes to prayer time.Anyway,I was a very shy then as a kid.Maybe still a lil now =)
But when we have to repeat after Desmond in prayer, the boy was all ready & full of excitement.Just a sense of confidence & joy! Like our daddy in Heaven wants us to have.
He will never fail us.He love us so much to die on the cross for us.Will He not FREELY give us ALL things!
Embrace His LOVE today!
Grace be with you, beloved!

The story of Ruth

The Book of Ruth
Chapter 1: Sweet & Bitter Providence
Chapter 2: Under the Wings of God
Chapter 3: Strategic Righteousness
Chapter 4: The Best is Yet to Come
They're all lovely =) Take your time to read em slowly.
May God continually give you a personal Revelation of His Words to you.
Listen closely to what He has to say to you.He has your heart's desire.
Our Daddy God loves you very much!
Grace be with you all beloved!=)

Grace to you!

"Grace to You" & Grace with You"
Oh I Love this one.Such simplicity.But yet so profound.
"...What I want us to see from these 26 texts is the way the apostle Paul begins and ends all his letters. He wrote 13 letters(Philemon-Romans) in our New Testament. He begins and ends each of them with a blessing of grace upon the Christian readers...
...The opening blessing, "Grace to you,"—grace to you through these inspired letters—what that says to us is that the Word of God should be the primary instrument of grace in the life of the church. The preaching of the Word, the teaching of the Word, the singing of the Word, the praying of the Word and the sharing of the Word. If the free and sovereign grace of God is to be central in the life of our church, then we must be a people of the Word.
And the closing blessing, "Grace be with you," says to us: When the Word has been spoken, what counts is the presence of God with us—by his Spirit confirming the word, illuminating the Word, begetting faith by the Word, empowering deeds taught in the Word. It's the Spirit of Christ that stays with us and applies grace to us. "The Lord be with you." "I will never leave you or forsake you." So if we want to live in the ongoing power of grace, we must be a people of the Spirit.
A people of the Word and a people of the Spirit. Grace to you through the Word. Grace with you in the Spirit...."
Grace be with you!

Sit at His feet =)

Beloveds =)
I found this site to be REALLY good.So good that I think that you guys should not by any chance miss it.Hee.Not something entertaining/fanciful =) But well I love it so much that i'm "hook" to it now.Hee.
It's full of the promises of God preached by John Piper, a senior pastor of Bethlehem Baptist Church.Happen to come across it as I was doing some search.Click on his sermons.They're all good & I mean ALL!!=)
Some good samples=)
Does James contradict Paul?, No condemnation in Christ Jesus, Learning to pray in the spirit,All things for Good
Be truly blessed by His sermons.
Sow your time into His Word.For you'll never be able to out give the immeasurable
blessings He will pour forth on you if you had chosen the ONE thing needful.
To sit at His feet.
2 Corinthians 9:10
He who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will supply and multiply your seed for sowing and increase the harvest of your righteousness.
Grace is overflowing in you!

A walk of love

Last Wednesday, Lydia & I finally decided to go ahead with wat we always have in mind but never purpose it.Hee-To walk from Sengkang to East Coast.Hee~yea yea.I know wat some of you guys might be thinkin....jacq walk?...i get comments like..."Lydia can...but you...Hee..."I've prove you guys wrong!Haha.We made it! Thanks Lydia for leading the way...I'm so proud of you & myself too =)
It brings me to think about that day to East Coast & what a perfect picture it is our walk with God. He takes us to places we'll never be able to make it ourself.He gives us space to stand on our own & assures us that we can do what He's called us to. Then He assure us to trust Him as He takes our hand & leads us further out, to places we couldn't navigate without Him. He stays close, whispers encouragement and never give up on us.And even if we fail, He's right there to pick us up again, leading us back.
We all have our set of journey we're taking. Each one different from others.To some it's has been exhilarating, exciting, or even terrifying?Hee~I certainly have my share too. But when walked with Jesus, life takes a different perspective...
Christian life is a walk of faith.God has shown me in my deepest times that it is not about asking Him "Why this or that happen to me? but rather ask myself "Does this bring me to a greater level of faith, a greater level of trust, greater purity, greater courage, greater humility, greater patience & self control? Many times I really wish I dun have to go thru all this, but He assures me that all this is necessary for our growth. He never say that life is empty of heartaches, but He did promise that He'll bring us THRU out trials. His joy will be our strength! He will never leave us nor forsake us.
Along e way, we may even feel like giving up/giving in to life challenges that come along the way, we doubt His love for us, we feel "dry" ,we lost the first love. We really wish we could turn back & take e easier route but we know that it's not e best way...so wat we may say?Life is already so hard on me.We cry because it hurts so much...hoping that it will ease the pain. But Jesus says He has overcome the World.Greater is He that is in you that is in the world. He is your strength.He loves you. He cares for you...You know it, but you dun feel it...
I've been there.Whenever I feel I have left e sense of belovedness in me, I get into reading His Word over and over again until I sense His peace in me.A sense of knowing that ALL will be well.
This is something beautiful I read which holds dear to me:
God's omnipresence and the manifestation of His presence are two different things. One is a fact, the other is often a feeling. Yes, He wants you to sense His presence, but He's more concerned that you trust Him than you feel Him. Faith, not feelings, pleases God. He is good, He loves me, He is with me, He knows what I going through, He cares and He has good plans for my life - never doubt in the dark what God has told you in the light. Trust God to keep His promises, don't trust your emotions, and realize He is taking you to a deeper level of maturity. A friendship based on emotion is shallow indeed. So don't be troubled by trouble. Circumstances cannot change the character of God. God's grace is still in full force. If God never did anything more for me, He would still deserve our continual praise because of what Jesus did on the cross. God's Son died for us! That alone is worthy of my continual praise and thanks. Amen.
Besides giving us constant encouragement through His written words and unfailing presence, He sends it through someone like you or me =)
All or us have a prince/princesses beauty in us waiting to be revealed. As God Himself lifts us up and sends encourager into our lives, we too can be the encourager He sends to others when we take a little time to share ourselves, when we believe in others and cheer them on, we deposit something in their lives that can never be measured.
It's amazing how alive you will feel when you abandon your comfort zone.You will also find a sense of accomplishment rising on the inside when you know that Christ love has been deposited to your love ones. Even more so when you witness Christ miracle working power in their life & they start sharing it with others. You will have a fabulous glow that others will notice. That is the JOY of the Lord. This Joy also comes when we lavish our love on the one that loves us most!
Know too that you're specially fashion by Him & that you're walking in His divine purpose and all is in order. That you are doing your best with the life that you've been served.
Dare to journey, to venture, to love, to give, to serve to empty yourself just as Christ did for us.
Trust Him with the season of your life.
Everything in life is temporary except His awesome love for us. It is one thing that will never lose its luster.

Grace be with you all, beloved!