Before telling you guys about the suspense of the story.Hehe let me bring you down memory lane on how Daddy God has liften me up from a point where situation around me all seems hopeless to a ground of victory. It's a walk/an experience I've never regreted or would wanna exchange for anything else. The final walk was a touch of His great Love for me!
I promise you that this IS going to be LONG.Heh.So if you're rushing time, hungry?,sleepy...it will be a task reading this =) But if you do finish it...it's a miracle.Haha.jk
This pass 2 weeks has been one of the toughest moments in my life I would say.But it was a period that I drew closest to Him & cling on to His promises so ever tightly-taking nothing less than what He has promised. It was e day that I receive the news from my lecturer that I had to re-do my attachment for 5 weeks.No one likes repeat.No one likes failure.I felt so horrible.I cried so much that tears just keep flowing.So much so that I think I might have even been dehydrated if I continued on =) But failures brings me to the end of myself & all of God.
My lecturer even told me that if I dun pass this there was a chance that I might have to pay back my bond to the hospital.(which I know is not true because I know I've favor with e Head & e rest=))
It's not only that, the Ben Gen camp meant much more to me then all this.Doing another 5 weeks means that I will not be able to make it for e camp.But if I saw how God miraculously paid my way there, will He not make a way for me?
This pass 2 weeks was a time I experience one of my greatest growth in the Lord.
I'm also thankful that He send Joshua(not the real name =)) to confirm His Word each time.
1) When I heard about the repeat of my attachment,I spoke to three person(my bro, Joshua & my landlord) & the first thing they ALL mention was Romans 8:28.
2)One day while I was doing my QT, He gave me this verse so clearly that I knew so strongly in my heart that it really was from Him. It’s 2 Cor 2:14.The same day after work while i was in the bus, i took out my devotional book & the first page it so "happen" to flip to was also from 2 Cor 2:14! being the verse of the day out of the 365 days with the heading "Do not Worry".I was too shocked, that I immediately close the book to allow myself time to resume back to my normal state.Hee.
The same week, Joshua explain something using 2 verses and it was also from 2 Cor 2:14 too!
3)Last 2 sundays, pastor spoke on faith. The one thing that touch me most was when he said "Enjoy the process of faith" and later I realised the day before Joshua also wrote Enjoy this walk-a walk to remember. Last Sat, Deacon mention it too regarding the making of clays & said….Enjoy the process. It was like God telling me to keep cool in all this and enjoy this walk!
4)A few days back, I heard His voice so audibly again.This verse "I am sure that the one who began a good work in me, he will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ" It kept repeating over and over again. That I decided to search up e verse. It’s not a verse that I’ve memorise & even if you ask me now, I may not quote it as clearly as i could that day.Surely it was his spirit in me.
The very next day, I happen to turn to my old notes after so long.And my eyes fell on the page where I wrote down what Jacob(FGA youth speaker) prayed for me three months back. And one of the 2 verses he gave me was from Phil 1:6!!
I dun even recall writing that verse down.Hee.
5)And I also shared to Joshua about the other things Jacob phrophesied.One of which he said he saw two wings. One was e spirit & the other the Word. He said that I was sensitive to the Spirit but was not grounded in the Word. Which was true then, cause all my years growing up as a Christian I knew hardly ten verses ;) But this pass 2 weeks, with the revelation he revealed to me, remembering became so much more easier for me.I remember more than all my 20years plus as a Chrsitian!
Joshua wrote back to me something which I thought was really beautiful :
Soar on His eagles' wings! He always carries us... and I'm reminded of our New Creation logo, the silver and gold wings... of redemption and divinity from Ps 68:11-13:
11 The Lord gives the command;
The women who proclaim the good tidings are a great (in number and quality) host:
12 "Kings of armies flee, they flee,
And she who remains at home will divide the spoil!"
13 When you lie down among the sheepfolds,
You are like the wings of a dove covered with silver,
And its pinions with glistening gold.
When we are in His rest, guarded by Jesus (He is the door of the sheepfold), we are the wings of the Holy Spirit-Dove, of silver and gold. In His rest, we enjoy the victory He accomplished for us when He went before us (Ps 68:7), to overcome the world and the hosts of darkness. We may seem to be doing nothing but resting at home, resting in Him, yet great is the plunder for us, because Jesus has done it all! =)
That was fresh from our Abba for you! Jesus loves you very much, beloved.
And before I open his mail, God spoke to me saying "Even if you try by your own effort to accomplish what you have hope for, it will not be as much as what I can do if you just learn to rest"(I was quite worried at that time for not studying at home instead of just resting) And it was a confirmation when he wrote...resting at home.
And guess wat, on the same day during combine last sat, the last song was:
"..And as I wait,
I'll rise up like the eagle,
& I will soar with you,
your spirit leads me on,
by the power of your love"
God is my witness to all this. And He loves me so much to show me His love thru His Word, His Spirit in me & His people.
And this give me a sure Hope & Faith deep in my heart that no matter what He’ll make a way for me to the camp. It will take a miracle...Dunno how he was going to do it, but He made it for me in the end!
On Monday morning, my physio Head called me to her office.This is what she told me:
"We wont be able to take in students from 6th to 10th of June because the hospital is doing an audit.It was exactly the date of e camp!Can you believe it.Haha.Not only that, she went on to say...
If possible, we'll pass you in 2/3 weeks!
No replacement or bringing forward.
It was just that! Nothing of all e conversation that I had in mind.It's just so amazing, cause I told her nothing about the camp.Something I cant say to a Head.Hee.
God not only answered my prayer for the camp. I remember telling Him that I'll pray for 2 weeks although it may seem impossible.At least thats what my supervisor told me.She would say at least 3 weeks because she was told by my lecturer that there isn't such a thing as cutting short an attachment.
I always pray that God will speak to my head like how Pastor Prince prayed to God to speak to his commander(wat do u call em,heh) in NS in a dream.Hehe.
God's just so amazing.Now the hospital cant even accept students during that period!Haha.
Looking back over my life, I can honestly say that God has pretty much given me everything I've asked Him for, from the easy to the seemingly impossible.I am still anticipating to receiving His blessings In His perfect timing =)
I have a confession to make.I am spoiled.Teribly, teribly spoiled with so much given to me.
I have been a recipient of such freebies as mangoes(Heh.from e fruit stall aunty, my fav), computer, 2 watches,5 bibles, 2 table lamp, 2 hand phones,$50 rent for a whole new 5-room flat, & of course this camp fees and well, you name it!
Do you see a God who blesses more than one.He gives us in abundance.
And it's just the tangible, in-your-hands spectrum. I could go on and on about God's loving guidance, His special way in letting me know I have His undivided attention(at least it feels that way=)), or the favour He gives me with others.
I choose to name ALL this gift from God. Some of my blessings have been material, and others have been incredible opprtunities some would view as serendipitous moments, but I see my Father's hand in the midst of all this!
Why am I so confident?It certainly isn't because I'm more spiritual than the next person. I know many people who pray more, read their Bible more, and simply know more about God than I do.
As I have sought to understand why some folks are blessed more abundantly than others, God's Word has confirm to me that that His ultimate desire is for all of us to be bless. One that overflows with His rich providence & goodness as we listen to the Spirit to become more & more like Christ!
God's Word gives us an entry to the deep riches of His blessings!
Spend your time with Him.After you've shared your heart with Him, continually reading His Word, He will impress a portion of Scripture in your mind for you and that will be a word of instruction or comfort to you.Or you will have a sense of deep knowing(like how I knew I will make it to camp), a conclusion, and a peace on the subject you have laid on Him.Or sometimes He sends someone who has the answer you seek or to confirm His Word.
If you have this sense of knowing, walking thru your trials becomes a rest!
Resting in the knowing that God will fulfill what He has promise.He is not an author of confusion but of peace.
Rest today in His grace.It has all been paid for on the cross.
Know it.Believe it.Rest in it.
Love wat pastor said"Be cool when the devil the adversary comes to attack you.Focus on Jesus, NOT your enemies"
May you live a life that glorifies his name in all you do!
"But seek first His kingdom & His righteousness, & all this things will be ADDED to you!"
Grace be with you, beloved!=)
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