It's been a month since I last wrote and many times I do wish the Lord has spoken somethings for me to share but days have gone by so quickly that finding time to sit down didn't come easy.
This one month has been a tough month for me. Not many see it or know about it, but what can go wrong went wrong. What I had never experience, I encounter.
Exactly a month back, I had a sharp back pain that land me in my bed immovable for a day. It just came on me one morning I woke up without any reason why. That afternoon, I receive a news that brought tears to my eyes.
Two weeks later, I had high fever for the first time since I came to Singapore.
The following week, vomiting and diarrhea. The last time I vomited was when I was six years old when I was travelling uphill. I always thought I do not know how to, it was so bad that day that it came naturally. I land myself on my bed that night accompanied with fever. Hardly able to eat or walk to buy my food.
That's when the Lord opened my eyes to see the reason for the change. The best time He could catch my attention was when I was resting on my bed. I really needed a change. I'm so tired. I cant work or study in this state. I cried on my bed that night and that's when I hear Him telling me...Come to me and I'll give you rest.
It has not been about my circumstances. It has been about Him. I put on the three cds by Joe Purcell my fren gave me for my birthday that night and I could practically feel life in me and faith coming back. The next morning, still feeling nauseous, I listened to it again before heading to work and I knew something had happened. I was well and it's like a cloud of darkness has left me.
During this period, He was telling me to be focus on what He has called me to do. When I focus to doing what is for my season, there'll be life flowing in all areas.
Last Saturday, sited at the centre top section of Jubilee Hall at Raffles Hotel watching the musical 'Fiddler on the Roof' by my school children, my heart was moved. A great sense of love return for the children and my school came upon me. I love the speech my boss Patricia gave to the audience on how valuable we are even though we may go thru rough times in life...and deliberately adding to her speech a few times 'May God bless you'. I strongly believe Pat's Schoolhouse is successful because there's a God factor in it.
When I was in doubt and became dull and tired over my work and studies, I unconsciously doubt what He has promised He could do it my life. I went back to the One who gives me rest, and He rested my soul and everything around me. The life of God work through us through the desires He has put in our hearts. And if the passion you once have is no longer there, or there is no life in an area of your life...Go to Him and find rest. With rest comes the fullness to do what He has called you to do.
Today I know a change has taken place. I'm happy and well :) maybe partly because it's my off day hehe...but I know my heart is at rest and I know things around me will be likewise.
Grace IS with us!
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