Acknowledge Your Powerlessness

There are places in you where you are completely powerless. You so much want to heal yourself, fight your temptations, and stay in control. But you cannot do it yourself. Every time you try, you are more discouraged. So you must acknowledge your powerlessness. This is the first step in Alcoholics Anonymous and the treatment of all addictions. You might as well think of your struggle this way. Your inexhaustible need for affection is an addiction. It rules your life and makes you a victim.
Simply start by admitting that you cannot cure yourself. You have to say yes fully to your powerlessness in order to let God heal you. But it is not really a question of first and then. Your willingness to experience your powerlesness already include the beginning of surrender to God's action in you. When you cannot sense anything of God's healing presence, the acknowledgement of your powerlessness is too frightening. It is like jumping from a high wire without a net to catch you.
Your willingness to let go of your desire to control your life reveals a certain trust. The more you relinquish your stubborn need to maintain power, the more you will get in touch with the One who has the power to heal and guide you. And the more you get in touch with that divine power, the easier it will be to confess to yourself and others your basic powerlessness.
One way you keep holding on to an imaginary power is by expecting something from outside gratifications or future events. As long as you run from where you are and distract yourself, you cannot fully let yourself be healed. A seed only flourishes by staying in the ground in which it is sown. When you keep digging the seed up to check whether it is growing, it will never bear fruit. Think about yourself as a little seed planted in rich soil. All you have to do is stay there and trust that the soil contain everything you need to grow. This growth takes place even if you do not feel it. Be quiet, acknowledge your powerlessness, and have faith that one day you will know how much you have received.
                                                                               The Inner Voice of Love, Henri Nouwen
I love the illustration drawn using the little seed planted in rich soil. Just give me a sense of rest. The plant continues to grows regardless of where it's planted, be it a mansion or in a run down estate. It continues to grow as long as it's planted in good soil and watered daily. Our growth has never been dependant on our outward circumstances but where we plant ourselves to hear His Word. Oh, this just came from the Lord:) If you are already planted in good ground and is constantly hearing His Word, you are growing!
I went to flickr hoping to find a picture of a sprouting plant. And the picture you see above was the picture I had in mind and was posted on the main page! =) Amazing,